I’m actually surprised that I’m blogging about something that sort of matters. Well, here’s the background story. As some of you may know, I’ve been playing cello - the somewhat big string instrument- ever since I was seven years old. Why did I start? I honestly don’t know myself, but I suppose one of the main reasons includes the fact that all the other Asian kids were starting a musical instrument, and mum started to panic. If I had a say in it back then, I would have chosen to play a wind instrument, more specifically flute or clarinet, but since there was a cello teacher living right below us in our apartment complex, I ended up starting my first lesson without much enthusiasm.
After years of practice, reprimands for not practicing enough, and a few meager awards, I’ve come to my first major decision concerning this matter. To say it frankly, I want to quit. But, when someone has done something for more than half her life, it is hard to let go. The main reasons I want to quit now are because of my fears of the schoolwork load for next year, the lessons that usually take away 2-3 hours of that precious time, and my overrun schedule that doesn’t allow a class I really want to take, yearbook. From the way I see things, there is really no point in taking orchestra anymore. Sure, I will miss the friends I have in there, but I know I don’t really belong. If I want to be harsh on myself, I know that I’ve never been musically talented. All of the results that my various teachers have produced are due to the countless hours forced to practice. Yearbook on the other hand, incorporates the many things I love to do. For instance, the graphics aspect of it, the interviewing, the writing, and all of that which is creative.
So last night, I made the final decision that’s been put way too far into motion to stop now. I emailed my former multimedia teacher, asking if there was still a space on the staff. Thankfully, she welcomed me with open arms and is even going to help me change my schedule. And also, I’m going to write a letter to my current cello teacher, telling her of my decision. I’m a such a chicken when it comes to confrontations. So I think I’m going to go pack up all my musical things in my room this afternoon, which isn’t going to be that great of a reminder of what I’m doing. Maybe I’ll replace that empty area with a desk… that would be nice.
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Sorry that there hasn’t been any updates here recently. The reason of that is because I’ve been putting all of my time and effort into Roodesigns, which is going swimmingly. So if you haven’t already, please go check it out! I’m sure you won’t be disappointed! (Also, if you want some social networking, you should join the new forum.)
